Before I was a mother. Before I was a wife. Before I even knew who I AM as a person. I would lose hours upon hours in the studio during college. I felt like a machine, churning out work. Nothing great. Nothing ground breaking. Just little bits of myself onto paper or canvas or in the dark room. Now I have minutes to spare, not hours. So I try and slap some paint on a canvas. I get a 5 minute sketch out. I almost feel for those 5 minutes like I am back in the studio at school, pouring a part of me out onto paper. And then someone screams, "MAMAAAAA!!!!"
It's fun while it lasts. How do you experience "before" when you have 5 minutes to spare?
The impossible equation of motherhood I´d say..! :-) You´ve got talent though! :-)
ReplyDeleteYet another talent up your sleeve! I have no idea how to experience pre-mama Jenn. I feel lucky to shower some days. lol
ReplyDeleteJust wait, you'll have more time when the kinder are a bit older! I did have to stop when the kids where younger-- & I've yet to do anything on the scale of what I used to {murals, furniture refinishing etc-- how I got through grad school, now just a hobby}-- but now I have the teen Things for a helping hand, encouragement & inspiration!
ReplyDeleteI didn't know you studied art- cool! I also keep a sketch book, it's small so it fits in my diaper bag and I sketch every now and then during naps etc... although these days I do a lot of playing on my phone instead- not great :) I never get a chance to paint anymore... someday.
ReplyDeleteYesterday, your palette was broad and the possibilities endless. Today, you may be slightly more limited, but you do what you can with what you're given. Some people have all the time in the world but don't know the value of it. You--you have a true asset because you squeeze every last drop out of your time doing things with your precious family. It really matters not what you did before you were a wife and mother because those are the greatest gifts you have been given. The things you are able to do NOW are so much more important because you are doing them for a purpose. Your talents will always be there--it is who you are. The incredible thing is that you are sharing them with others and being an inspiration for new talent to arise. I am in awe of you and all that you do!
ReplyDeleteAnd another talent emerges! Reading - the thought of losing myself in a book for hours on a Saturday afternoon makes me positively giddy. I do still read, but mostly parenting books or the beginnings of fiction books I've read before and know the ending already so it's okay if I don't ever find the time to finish.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful drawing! Taking photos reminds me of "before." Reading the odd book is good too!
ReplyDeleteJust put one son on the bus and am taking time to go back thru your posts! I love this one.....yes, as Harrison will be in school full days this year, I am hoping to not only see the before, but now how it has changed a bit in the past 6 years. I will def. get to spend some more time being ME! Thanks for the inspiration--you are a fabulous artist.
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